..both roles!!!

HE recently got saved..YAAY!!!! And am the one who taked to him about God.. even though i've strayed a bit (omit 'a bit')i miss God, as ironic or strange as that may seem, i miss God. So when HE made this decision, i was extatic!!!! Showed HIM who to talk to, what to read, what to do.. And went on about how that journey is gonna be phenomenal for HIM.

Now, what's messed-up is that i am also the one on top, screaming his name.. saying am cuming.

....how am i gonna play both roles...??